After sometimes

I always wanted to write down something 'but' 'but' 'but' 'but', how can i avoid from using the 'but' word. I think the reason is FB, instagram and tweeter has taken away my time from blogging. Not that I actively put up a post and update, but I like to read news feed and other people's update. And Im using all the media social to get to know news, information, interesting topics such as gardening, cats. Recently, I worked on my friendlist as I feel that I need to stay away from negative vibes. I mean, if I see people post about their belongings, I will think, ''ohhh belagaknya". So, I think as I cannot hinder myself from thinking that way, I better keep these people off from my facebook. 

And another reason is I juz have to admit that Im facing marriage problem right now. Huh, sound so serious but yes, it is serious.. i shud take that as serious. Yet, I think I can do something, but again 'but' I feel ego (is this right sentence?), I am lazy, I am not motivated, I am not thinking positive, I am so used to be indipendent and make my own decision, I am not praying hard enough. Apart of this problem is myself. I know but  but but but I make it feel that I am on right side. I expect H will apologize to me. I expect H will change and I know this will never happen. A 43 yr old guy, do you think he will change? Myb i need a slap on my face to wake me up from this 'egoistic' self. 

New year resolution

Every year I make certain target in order to improve mylife. And alhamdulillah so far I manage to achieve some if not all my yearly KPI.

For 2014, I want :
1. If last year Ive done my aurat for the leg n wear sock, this year I want to completely take care of my hand aurat. I want to wear handsock.
2. To perform solat sunat at least once daily.
4. To allocate 1 hour everyday read book with the kids. no tv on.
5. To cook early in the morning so that in the sfternoon we can eat straight away.
6. To usefully utilize working time for work and do less personal stuff esp surfing net.

I have no material target this year unlike previous years where I will set a new asset to acquire. I will spend money carefully for benefit of the family n maybe going for holiday in Sandakan (bil family is there).