Si comel masuk hospital

Ni la satu part yang aku trauma bila ada anak. Time anak sakit dan kadang aku xtau macamana nak treat dengan betul sampaila akhirnya terpKsa masuk ke hospital. Fatima kena broncolitis after having

Being in hospital

Ya Allah, I hate being in hospital be it hospital kerajaan nor five star hospital. I feel so lonely and feel so worry thinking my loved one is not in good health.

First time be in nicu really gives me valuable lesson and experience. All this while I always skip page that contained picture of sick baby. But now I see them in front of my eyes. My heart is crying with them. Those babies including mine are left crying.slone until they get tired and go back to sleep.  Now that my baby is free from oxigen airway n all those wires I can hold him and I juz dont want to ley him go for even one second. Ya allah I hope I can bring my baby home so soon. I hope my baby is healthy. Ya allah, grant my prayer.

Fourth day

Kerja tuhan sangat sempurna. Disaat aku diduga dengan anak yang belum sihat, aku pula berada dalam keadaan sihat yang membolehkan aku menjaga dan mengepam susu. Sedangkan semasa kelahiran Faris dan Fakhri, aku merasa sakit sangat ketika berpantang dengan buasir. Tapi kali ini aku tidak mengalami semua kesakitan itu. Aku boldh berjalan dan membuang air seperi biasa. Namun, aku tetap berhati-hati. Aku cuma berjalan dari wad ke nicu.

Dak baby Fatih pun dah menunjukkan peningkatan kesihatan yang baik. Dia dah boleh minum susu. Ya Allah, semoga kami dapat pulang ke rumah dengan segera.

Anak tak bernasib baik vs anak yg dihargai

Aku sering bertanya kenapakah wanita yang mengandung tanpa nikah begitu senang melahirkan sedangkan aku bertarung nyawa separuh mati.

Selain itu agaknya bayi yang dibuang merata tempat tu tiada masalah kesihatan sedangkan bayiku yang ditatang dengan treatment terbaik pun ada,masalah jangkitan kuman.

From the corner of pantai labor room

The things I worry if I cannot give.birth today are my kids will be stuck in daycare until tomorrow and h will not able to open the shop, furthermore H needs to go back to manage kid's clothing. Then I will be left alone here in misery. Therefore, I pray hard that the deliver comes on time. Amin.

I was frustrated when the midwife said that I didnt dilated despite constraction and blood show. And somehow the contraction slowed down in hospital. Ive been very careful waiting for right time to go to hospitsl because I dont want to spend so much time leaving my kids and the shop.

But later Dr Idris came and said I had 3cm dilated. As usual he knows the frametime I will give birth. I hang on to his words and Ya Allah please ease the process and I seek your blessing. Amin