Blurry Monday

and lazy and sleepy and feeling painful throughout the body.
Last Saturday, H & I were having a row. I cooked for lunch to send to the shop. I wanted to go to Mydin afterward, so I tot maybe I juz eat lunch at the shop. I did not want to be late and H must be hungry.
I always feel that H doesnt really like having me at the shop. Especially with my idea to eat there with him at one place. He said, " nak melantak, melantakla kat rumah dulu, nie kat kedai baru nak makan." I was stunned. I replied, " Janganla cakap macamtu, taknakla, taknakla, oklah orang nak gie Mydin". Like usual, I turned into drama queen. Without looking back, I walked away and drove off. Okay, I got bengang! In the middle of driving, H smsed, "Maaflah ... tapi saya rimas tengok sikap mengada-mengada ... ". What! He said that I was mengada-ngada (spoilt ke). I replied, "Okay fine .... (not suitable for public view)". He tried to coax me and I sorta bough it. So, we were okay.

Came the nite, he sent me to kampung because I wanted to attend Mai's wedding the next day. In the car, again he said something that pulled the trigger of my anger. So, we had argument. For the first time, I cried in front of him. I was crying right from Sri Damansara to KESAS. Heheh, that long. Well, I guess it really work to cry in front of a man. Especially when all this while, u never cry and always look so tough in front of him. H was quite freaking out. And at the end, I felt sorry for him for my bad behavior. Tho it was hard for me to say I was sorry (ego ego ego ego), making up was always the best thing. Hehehe.. Suddenly, I knew that I really love him, love love love him. He juz dropped me at my mum's house that nite, I was missing him so much. I couldn't never imagine to live without him and hopefully we are together forever. Kekekek.... Jiwang karatzzz.. eiii bukan senang tau.. sebulan sekali pun susah nak dgr i love u.. baik aku, apatah lagi dia..