It was Cityhunter

I totally have no intention anymore at all to write this. But, I juz can't get myself off from looking back at the memories of him. Ok, I will only write as little as possible. It's not that I am still thinking about him or anything.

Okay, semalam aku ubah balik perabot dalam bilik aku. Aku memang macam nie, aku cepat boring dengan satu-satu susun atur dan aku akan selalu mengubah kedudukan barang-barang. Kadang-kadang sebab nak jimat ruang, kadang-kadang juz sebab aku boring dengan kedudukan lama dan hasilnya kedudukan baru sgtlah tak praktikal. Tapi takpe, biar dalam masa 2 minggu dan lepas tu ubah balik ke kedudukan lama.

Semalam, aku nak buang satu kotak besar dalam bilik yang aku simpan harta-harta karun berupa : Sijil-sijil dan transkrip, surat-surat lama, stuff mcm wrappers, kad-kad, resepi, lagu-lagu, negatif gambar dan yang paling aku lama simpan agaknya, ialah printout semua email-email, e-card dan forum masa mula-mula berkawan dgn Hunt. MAsa kenal dgn Adik, Korn Man, Kak Ja dan few others.

And aku ada buat satu website khas utk Hunt. Godek-godek internet tadi, ohhh god.. masih ada lagi, dah 6/7 tahun berlalu. Website yang aku buat bila jaga komputer lab. Hehee, dan last sekali edit website tu masa break up dulu penghujung tahun 2001. Tapi, ape yang aku kagum masa tu, macamana aku boleh jadi seorang penyair, pujangga dan penjiwang. hehehe.. okay, dua poem yang aku buat masa tu : Jeng jeng.

Sayang, I love u all days and nights, I miss u whenever you are not around..
I like u in whatever u are, I need u in each minute of my day
I adore u for your wise, intelligent, funny but yet humble way
I know you like I know myself
I feel you with me that keeps me safe and sound
I feel your gut that vanishes my fear
I breath in the air that is filled with your love
I treasure your kindness, honesty and loyalty
I dream of you in my sleep I dont want to wake
I want to live with you forever...

Birds flying high
in the sky so blue
with all my heart
Sayang, I love you...

Whatever it is, I promise myself that everytime I am getting hurt, I will live my life much more better than before. Maybe I cuoldnt make it up to him, but I will be good to others. Each time, it will improve and improve... I wanted to delete this page, but.... I've built it with times and energy, so I put it as memory and history in my life. It is now only memory, but it was sweet. What happened is hurting, but I never regret of it. It comes from mistakes and misunderstanding, but I never blame anything. Now, It changes my life totally, but I am all open to accept it. In fact, if 'you' read this page one day, I'll always pray for ur happiness. I know that ahead of me, I will be a better person to deserve a much better other half.


Who knows, 1 in a zillion the probability Hunt is seeing this page. I juz hope that he forgives me. Word can't describe the regret that I bear. And I pray for his happiness.

Oh ya, disebbakan aku selalu lupa buku yang aku baca utk direkodkan. Mulai hari ini aku nak tulis buku apa yang aku sedang baca, lagu aku yang aku tengah suka, cerita apa yang aku tak boleh miss.

Buku : alamak.. lupa plak tajuk dia.. heheh.. ada kat kereta
LAgu : If I could turn back time - Cher (lepas tgk Behind The Story MTV)
Cerita : The Apprentice and Latte @ 8

To Kak Izni : Happy Belated Birthday... Tho, I miss ur birthday, but I treasure ur frendship always...