Blame it to the Sparky Uranus

One of the quote bout man and woman, "Woman having prob in the relationship will affect her at workplace, man having problem at the workplace will affect his relationship".
I certainly am the person who rarely believe or give an eyes for quotations, phrase or philosophy words. Very rare but at times, it can catch my attention. Oklah. Tp tak affect keje, cuma I have to make the conversation in the office and it might be heard by fellow colleagues.. malu gue!

Today, finally I find the strength to talk to him bout the whole situation. I want to ignore it actually, but my besfren adviced me to give it a go. So, there I was.. picked up the phone and dialed his no when hate and love is colliding inside me. It was juz for the sake that I want a plain ending rather than bad ending, thats all. I dun want to keep a bad feeling towards him or worst a vengeance. I didnt need anymore explanation from him, I juz hoped that he learned a lesson or two from this. I definitely didnt accept his apology. Its juz too late now and if he was sincere, he had done it a long time ago. I juz want him to be out of my life and I dun want to come across his name again. I didnt intend to hate him, so I wanted him to stop involving me in his life or in all his affairs. And I would like to see him to keep his good image and status rather than distributing his pic everywhere and having non-real chat with all girls.

And for the very first time I think, I heard his sincere voice and honest talk, but I didnt buy anything come out of his mouth now. I hope he realized what he'd caused me all this while. It is so difficult for me to forgive and forget, but I juz go on with my life without having hate him. I hope he would too. I dunno where I went wrong in our relationship, but I juz hope that he will respect myself and my life now. We are on two road that heading on differen direction, the intersection is in the past. Perhaps, as the earth is round.. as is our life cycle.. maybe our conquest will crisscross again someday.

I am not going to fight over a guy, and DEFINITELY not u. And we know why is that.

I feel sad. I lose another person again in my life. I dun believe that I come to this experience in my life. Meeting the most wonderful man with the worst unexpectedly long experience in my life ( I pray that I won't meet another). So close to a jerk.. and yet, I loved him so damn much and missed him in every heartbeat. But, I feel relief. I know this decision is right. Full Stop! The End .

My horoscope today (juz for the fun of it):
If unexpected events have been affecting your personal relationships in 2004, then sparky Uranus has probably got something to do with it. And yet today this starts to plod backwards, suggesting that however excitingly someone may have entered ur life, if they are leaving it, it may be reluctantly.