I dont want to meet, only to lose again

Oh ya.. lupa nak mention yang aku sekarang telah berjaya menjejakkan kaki di semua negeri kat Msia nie.. From Padang Besar to a bowl of laksa in Kuala Perlis, to memorable Langkawi, crossing the greeny paddy field in Kedah, a lovely moment with him in Pekan Rabu. First time in hotel in Geoerge Town, experiencing bus trip to home across Penang Bridge. An adventurous course in Lumut and Pangkor. Passing by Ipoh a long hwy thru Grik and Gua Tempurung... Back to KL. Once crossing the mountainous Titiwangsa to Kota Bharu. Cruising thru the nite with sparkling bulbs in Kerteh to Marang for a short induction course. and going back via beautiful crystal clear blue beach of Cherating and Kuantan. A free flying to Johor Bharu and crossing the causeway to Temasik. A hard and spinning trip to Medan, Indon with sister. Joining a merryful bridegroom to Muar, stopping by at Gunung Ledang. A relaxing trip to Melacca on a Xmas eve 2001. And colorful years in STJ, N9. One Lucky outstation in Kuching and another work trip to Labuan and KK. Yahhoooo yahoo..Hmm, bestkan. Dulu when I was a little girl, aku selalu wonder macamana laaa keadaan kat Indon tu. Aku selalu rasa yang aku takkan dpt pegi ke tempat jauh-jauh. Yelah, family aku pun bukan org berada. Even bapak dok ulang alik balik India, tp tu bapak... Klu setakat bawak kitroang, paling jauh pun pegi nengok nakwa masa tu kat SMSSS (Sains Selangor). Tu lee tempat paling jauh aku penah pegi. Kalau tak, bapak just bawak kitorang gie mandi kat Morib. Dulu masa sorang classmate aku masa sek rendah pindah Melaka, aku selalu wonder wahhh.. jauhnya dia pindah. MAcamanalaa Melaka tu kan..
So, the first time aku pegi jauh was masa rombongan darjah 4 melawat KL. And lepas tu aku pun jadik addicted to any rombongan kat sekolah tu. Mesti nak pegi, sampailaa sanggup tipu mak sebab nak ikut rombongan ke Melaka dua kali (satu sekolah kebangsaan, satu lagi sekolah agama). Tp takdelaa banyak sangat. Cuma pegi Hutan Lipur Lentang sekali, Sungai Tekala hmm tu jek kots. Taktau apsal diorang suka sangat buat pegi tempat air terjun. And masa Tingkatan 2 ke Cameron Highland.

So, sape sangka aku yg tak penah ke mana-mana nie mula menyinar... chewaaahhhh... kire mula jalan jauh bila dpt sekolah asrama kek Kolo Pilah.. STJ. Tu pun 2 minggu aku dok nangis tiap kali call umah. How Cengeng!!! Tu pun sbb lepas 2 minggu, ada cuti seminggu. Kalau tak, jawabnya mahu kering air mata aku. Yelah, anak ke'manja' mak and bapak. Masa kat STJ lah banyak peluang berjalan ke merata tempat.. sekolah asrama penuh kan. PAstu pulak, dpt ke USA.. peerghhhh... cannot imagine!! Kat US memang kaki jalanlaa.. And balik, dpt keje kat Tekom yg banyak bagi peluang untuk aku mengembangkan pengetahuan and skill aku. Seriuslyla.. tempat keje aku sekarang nie memang best dr segi nak dptkan ilmu and skill. Cuma tinggal lagi gaji jek tak best. And though, kitorang tak outstation kerap sangat, but once in a while peluang tu memang ada. This year nye C7 Signalling conference will be held in Beijing, I submitted detailed justification for us to attend. So, taktaulaa.. Kalau ade rezeki, adalaa tu.. Klu tak, kot bos nak pii ke.. or mungkin other colleague.. then, takpelaa..

BTW, I love to go to other places. Though I hate travelling (coz asyik nak terkenc and senang pening kepala), tp aku suka tengok tempat org. My fav channel kat ASTRO tu is Discovery Travel. And aku takdelaa fav places ke apa.. aku tak kisah pun pegi mana coz every new places will give new experience to me.. Cuma yelah, kenalaa tahan kalau toilet and tempat tidu tak best. Dulu masa ikut Nakwa ke Medan tempat parent in law dia.. Memang terpaksa mandi perigi yg hanya berdindingkan zink. So, awal kul 5.00 pagi aku dah bangun and mandi. And aku ingat lagi masa aku nak membuang air besar.. kekekek.. experience tul. Aku terpaksa mencangkung kat lubang yg di gali kat tanah bertemankan pelita and sebaldi air. Haiiyooooooo... Diorang punyalaa risau masa tu knowing that aku tak penah buat camtu. Dahtu, nak taknak terpaksa gaklaaaaa... Lagipun aku takleh nak resist makanan diroang yg sedap-sedap... especially Bakso dia memang sedappp.. lain dr Bakso yg aku beli kat food court bebaru nie. Not to mentioned, ikan bakar and kerang which are to my likings. break: errghh gotta visit my fren named Loo... kekekeke... sabo jek..

Ok, dah visit tu bawaklaa terus ambik wuduk dan solat terus. Oh ya.. susahnyalaa nak dpt duit Tekom nie. Nak dpt bonus yang secoet tu punyalaa banyak procedure kena completekan. Dahla MAPS tu dok trouble jek, then now kena isi 360 degree pulak. Where kita kena identify our superior, subordinate, peer and customer. And HR akan antar a whole bunch of questionairres for them to rate us. (10 pages tau!). Dengarnya mende tu is 10% of our final rank. Hmm, bayangkan pastu kita pun nak kena jawab Qs utk org lain... pepanjang laks tu. Wasting time and takkan kita nak rate kawan kita tu rendah knowing that without kitanya rating pun mmg HR akan bagi rank yang rendah. Dunno aaa.. maybe tahun nie dpt bonus 10 bulan kots. Klu camtu berbaloilaa buat mende2 nie sume kan..

Oh ya, lately nie heard so many cases of breaking ups. I know its so difficult and almost impossible to deal with. No word or action can heal broken hearted. Me also do not want to face it once again. No, not anymore please.. However, just always be there for ur frens in their down time...