Ema Melancholic..


The whole morning was spent in the meeting room. Hmm, Sometimes aku suka meeting sebab boleh lari dari daily routine and boleh pegi ke tempat lain (Menara Tekom).. Tapi usually when the meeting goes on till 12 o'clock, I tend to become sleepy, uncomfortable, aching everywhere and macam-macamla. I just cant stay in the meeting room more that 3 hours. Penat sangat. Macam tadi, sambil duduk tegak aku boleh tertido, sampaila Bala panggil aku. Kekekek.. Dahla Boss Pn Sherry was right across me, sure dia perasan aku tido. Today's meeting promised alot of good stuff to come next year, esp under new GM. Yesterday he even said to priortise the social circle among the stuff. Seem currently everybody is being so individualistic, and rumour heard that people in HQ, Menara have a little fight and in cold war. So, our new GM said that we will held a family day sort of thing or outing gathering next year. Hmmm, good idea, many of us dont know everybody in this division. From the careear prospect, there is also some improvement and hope. Hope I'll get my grade next year and be a competent worker la.. MAcam sekarang nie banyak mende yang tak memuaskan.

Dah dua hari nie ada jamuan kat ofis. Tadi ade majlis perpisahan untuk Kak Wook yg baru dapat VSS. Kira okla, dia pun lagi few years pencen, kira punya kira ambik VSS lagi menguntungkan dari tunggu pencenkan. Macam kawan aku cakap, being a paid housewife, cuma gajinya dibayar dahulu. Orait apa. Nampaknya berkurang lagila perempuan kat ofis nie. Tapi menu tadi memang sedap dan menyelerakan, Kari ayam, Sayur lemak kobis, ikan kering, ulam-ulam dan sambal belacan. Ade jugak buah-buah and ice cream cake for the dessert. Biasala Dolly nye plan. Datin was also there, hmm.. she is an Ir.. Ir Datin. Bestnyaa bunyi. Tapi dia tu pelik skett, aku selalu nampak dia berwirid kat surau, tapi.. hmmm, just now we saw her first time after her cosmetic surgery untuk tegangkan muka and naikkan hidung, taktaulaa sama ke tak ngan plastic surgery. PAstu dressing dia tu, hmmm.. I wonder what kind of bra that shes using, sebab nipple dia nampak.. ikshh, aku nie gossipping pulak. Despite many rumours heard about her, to me shes a nice and frendly boss.



It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry

There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew

On my melancholic side, hmmm.. Macam biasala, bila aku tak suka kat someone, aku mula terbayang all the nice things about orang yang suka. Sama exactly cam dulu, Aku tak suka Kori and dok terbayang Hunt. Now, aku tak suka Rin and dok bayangkan pakcik. Ikshh, bencila.. cepatla masa berlalu, sebab aku tau a month from now, I'll be ok.

I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to

Malam tadi talking to mum about this. Just want her to pray for me. Aku pun taknak macam nie, boringlaaa, penat dahh.. dok kenal guys and and get to know them. Pastu ngan macam-macam peristiwa, I am so fed up. Taknak dah. Enough!! Mak ade mention about something yang mengganggu aku. Can it be??? Ntahla, aku taknak percaya mende tu, tapi takleh gak nak tolak kemungkinan tu kan.. Ye ke, what do u think akak???

Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay

Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair


Mak suggest tanya kat Wak Buang, Wak buang nie jiran belakang umah yg pandai bab-bab mengubat dan ilmu nie. Dulu, Udin anak sedara aku yang tangan dia kena duri kelapa sawit, pegi kat hospital sana sine tak baik, tapi bila berurut ngan wak buang, alhamdulillah baik terus. Ntahla, so far I dont really care about it. Aku mintak mak doakan depan Kaabah nanti. InsyaAllah, aku harap aku akan mendapat berkat Ilahi.

I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin



* lagu tu, I'll be Okay from My Best Fren's Wedding soundtrack. I really enjoy the movie and the soundtrack.