My High school Sweetheart..


I just got into the office.. Well, after an expensive lunch (mahal ke ikan keli tu), and some surfing. Aemy (Suhaimi Yusof) is here working on INTACT project. Macho gak pakcik tu now.. Note: Still single.. kekekeke.. He was using my desk. I got a meeting at our new Menara Rebung. Lawa, sophisticated.. tapi jauh and no privacy compare to my partition now.

The karnival went fine. yelah, our first experience in organizing big event. Dahla usia pun tak sampai setahun jagung. Tapi cite-cite besar. Tapi oklaa.. Rasanya breakevent tu adalah kots. Tapi, I was completely tired. So, Ambik cuti semalam..

Hmm, ade satu cerita I wanna share..
Yelah, dah nama pun aktiviti Persatuan Bekas pelajar.. So, of course I met many of my high school frens. I was in charge of Urusetia. So, Its like everybody would go there. On saturday, one of my co-worker was my fren jugakla.. Hmm..
dulu masa aku sekolah menenagh.. Ntahla, I dont think I am attractive. I had more pimples back then. Somehow, I had quite a number of secret admirer (or admiree). Asri had a thing for me as early as when we were in one class in std six. But, He was so shy and quite. cume kengkawan jek yg selalu usik-usik kitorang. He never told me about his feeling. Sampaila bile kitorang held a farewell party in Form 3. Dia ajak aku gambar sama.. Tu pun, Safar yg cakap. Hmm.. Its not that i dont like him.. Tapi, since dia tak cakap apa-apa.. So, Aku pun buat taktau.. But, I admit.. I enjoyed being admired by many people.. So, mgkn thats the reason aku keep on playing around.. so, masa karnival tu.. He came.. He did came just to see me.. Hes married now. with a lovely wife. But, for the very first time since we knew each other.. Kitorang borak.. Kitorang tak penah borak masa sekolah dulu, although I know dia teringin nak borak ngan aku... I am really honestly happy for him.. He found a nice and beautiful wife. He asked me alot of things. Hmm.. Tapi SAfar cakap aku dulu jual mahal.. Ade keee.. Tak patut betul. I am actually a very shy person. Believe me.. Once aku kenal orang, aku memang baik.. Tapi aku sebenarnya malu sangat nak start borak ngan orang.. (and mickey refer this as my ego).

So, thats about Asri.. Pastu, adalaa a few.. Rohaizad. Kelas perdagangan guy yg selalu bagi aku lirik lagu.. and a couple of letters. Lagu May.. Gadis bertudung putih or sthing. Tapi sama gak.. Aku tak penah layan.. and buat taktau. Jahatkan.. Hmm, aku mengaku dulu aku jahat. Aku suka kecewakan orang. And one of the reason is sebab aku kawan ngan orang-orang yg suka pengaruhi aku. Ntahla, jahatnya..

Sebenarnya aku nie haa.. Yg selalu sukakan orang yg salah. Konongnya those guys yg aku minat nie is yg plaing macho. attractive and terkenal kat sekolah tu.. Tapi sebenarnya aku silap.. Diorang tu laa yg ntah hapa-hapa sebenarnya. Suka tu pun sebab Pida.
Pida nie is a fren yg byk pengaruhi teenage life aku. Dia baik, pandai, lawa.. Tapi dia nie quite liar. Sayang.. Tapi aku memang close sgt ngan dia. Pida nie jenis yg kalau nak minat orang pun, biar yg lelawa.. and camtulaa. Pida gakla yg ajak aku gie movie, rollerskating club.. lepak-lepak. belajar pasal mende-mende yg pada aku kurang elok. Tapi Alhamdullillah.. sebab aku masih dapat kontrol diri aku dr join dia sangat.

So, there is one guy yg betul-betul suka kat aku masa tu.. He was a head prefect.. Waa cakap lu.. I was also a prefect. So, thats how we knew each other. Masa tu, aku form 2 and dia form 4. Then, bile aku form 3.. aku pindah sessi pagi..So, we were in same session.. selalu meeting sesama. He was also a headboy. He was a science student. Masa tu cuma ada 14 orang jek science student (our school is a bad, village school/.. heheh.. ). I still remember my homescience class was next to his class. So, everytime we went to ERT (ekonomi rumah tangga). Kelas dia akan riuh rendah. Sume kengkawan dia akan usik aku. And pastu, diorang lontar2 kertas into our class (ade jejaring kat atas pemisah kelas we all).
Selalunya bile abih kelas.. Masa balik.. He would accompany me to the bus stop ( I took bus to school). Ade sekali tu.. Masa tu nak cuti penggal, he asked for my phone number.. I told him to read Cikgu Norhashim's plate (sama no ngan phone aku ).. So, thats how he got my phone number.. but it was only after the holiday.

Oh ye.. I forgot to mentioned that he proposed me when I was in F 2 and he was in F 4. Masa tu, on the hari penyampaian hadiah. I got to stay till evening to receive my hadiah as a excellence student. And dia kena stay sebab dia prefect. Hari tu hari kantin gak pagi tu.. So, during the break in between zohor tu semua.. He asked me to sit next to him in the hallway (ade kerusi kat hallway tu).. Masa tu, Pida, hanimah and Ela were also with me.. Hanimah and few other of my frens mmg known minat gile kat dia.. (dia memang ramai peminat.. yelahh, eligible ). So, masa kitorang dok borak-borak.. Pida took our picture. (I tore it down.. Bodohkan!!!!.. ). He asked me for the pics thousand times.. and I kept on giving him a lame excuses.

So, he only managed to get my phone number months after that (year 1992, when I was in F 3). Since we were in the prefect board.. so, we met a lots and always in the same activities. The rest of the prefect member memang knowledge pasal hubungan kitorang. But, I always so cold to him. Aku tak suka layan dia.. Sebabnya kan, sebab pida selalu cakap yg dia tu botaklaa. (dia botak kejap as a nazar for his SRP result).. Aku tak salahkan pida.. sebab masa tu aku tergila-gila kat Hauzi .
Masa our term in prefect board tu, we did quite a good image for prefects. And we conducted many activites. For the first time, we held big ceremony for Teacher's day. Aku jadi MC lagi.. kekekke.. lawaknya.. Bayangkanlaa Ogy masa dia host Melodi tu (people always say I look like Ogy). So, masa amik gambar utk prefect board tu. He stood next to me (Sebenarnya semua orang gave him way to stand next to me.. sabar je laa).

Tapi aku memang completely blind at that time. Aku dok terkejar-kejar Hauzi. Hauzi nie senior setahun dari aku. He was in Form 4 Art masa tu. He was a capten for Kadet Bersatu (aku plak kapten for Pandu Puteri). Tapi hauzi nie memang terkenal ngan sikap playboy dia.. Masa aku minat kat dia tu pun, dia tgh ngan orang lain.. Tapi, Hauzi and the gang memang terkenal kat sekolah tu.. Yelah, popular sebab bebudak Kadet nie mmg popular dan ramai peminat.

So, masa aku end Form 3 and He was buzy with SPM. Kitorang dah takde apa-apa. And aku ngan Hauzi pun takde pape coz dia dah bahagia ngan gf dia yg merupakan kawan aku, Jamilah. He did call me sometimes even after SPM.. even after I left school..He did call me.. on HAri Raya, on my Bday, on any special day... AKu plak, masa F 4 tu.. aku mula ngan Hauzi.. Ntah macamana. Mgkn HAuzi just used me. Tapi bila aku pindah sekolah, Hauzi was having affair with another girl. So, sebab tu aku break off.. Mgkn salah aku gak, aku nie suka pandang rendah kat dia.. Dia ajak aku gie tgk wayang masa raya aku taknak.. And macam-macamla aku selalu bolayan.. Jahatkan..

BAck to that guy. Kami still berhubungan.. Tapi malangnya aku tak penah dptkan contact number dia. Sampaila masa aku ke Sunway, and dia ke UTM Skudai.. AMbik civil Engine.. And lepas tu aku fled off to the States.. Kami lost contact. Aku penah nampak dia sekali kat Orchid Square kat Klang tu, Tapi ntah kenapa I didnt have a nerve to tegur dia.

But, the fact is.. I always remember him. Aku try cari dia kat phone directory. Setiap kali aku ikut mak aku ke Jenjarum, aku akan looking forward to see him. In fact, aku join persatuan nie pun sebab nak cari dia. Wishing that he was in the list.
Sekuntum bunga layu tiba-tiba
Oh.. sungguh hampa..

During the karnival, I met with one of my fren yg penah minat and baik ngan dia.. Aku saje jek tanya about his whereabout, kotla Norzita still contact dia. Tapi, Norzita pun dah tak penah contact dia. Hmm, hampa again. Norzita cakap yg He never opened his heart to any girls because of me. Hmm, sedih kan.. Masa aku dengar tu, aku rasa nak menangis. Aku tak sangka sampai camtu sekali.
Tapi dengarnya dia dahpun kawin. So, Abang Faizal, Mohd Faizal b Khailani ema doakan abang bahagia. Bukanla niat ema utk mengembalikan kenangan lalu. However, u got to know that I never hate u. I like u as much as u did. Tapi, I was too ego and stupid to perceive that. Sekarang, I pray for ur unconditional happines. I am sure Uve met a better woman than me. Walaupun kita tak ditakdirkan utk bertemu semula, but u are always on my mind.. May Allah blesses u.. May life is treating u wonderful. May u have all the love and happiness in the world.

So, tuhla aku.. Aku selalu tersalah memilih pasangan. I am always fail. But, I wont give up and I never regret.