Arghhhh.. will today I got my PMS ke. But, I feel so bad right since I woke up this morning. I hate PMS. I always feel depressed and in a very low state during this time. Aku akan rasa nak marah jek. I feel like everybody surrounding me is betraying me. I hate people around me. Even stimes, Im always angry at my mother. Arrghhh.. Today, I turn from Miss Nice Ema to Miss Fright Ema.. honestly. Because, bile jek aku dapat my BEJOT (term given by Haida cum the STF girls in Sunway), aku akan ok macam biasa. the smiling me. People always remarks me for being ceria all the time. Sometimes, bile aku senyap jek.. Abg Din, (My colleaague sits across my cubicle) will ask me if I have any prob, because usually I am so talkative and laughing around.

But today, I feel like putting a glue in my lips.. I dont smile. Dahla bangun lambat, I came to ofis at 9.30.. luckily, the car park still spares some room for me to park. Pastu, My colleague Mandy, asked me if I want to go to Labuan. Yesterday, boss asked her to go joining the mantainance group. Hmm, aku pun tak faham. I am the system admins for LBN, but in a odd reason that i dont know.. Boss asked Mandy. PAstu, Mandy hardly knows the LBN system and asked me to go. Taknaklaa aku, kenapa aku taknak?? Ntahla, I just feel macam kenapa at first boss tak suh aku pegi terus. Yg orang Mantainance pun satu, Mentang-mentangla Mandy tu kawan diorang.. so, she just simply asked her. No, I am not going kalau sebagai replacement.. and not going kalau just nak melawat and following other people. Furthermore, next week will be a bz week for me.. with my classes and Karnival. Hmm, nie yang susah kalau keje ngan kawan-kawan yang satu batch.. ITs fun to have a fren to eat.. Tapi Mandy is just so not like me. Nak ajak pegi memana pun susah. Sometimes, she always has her own agenda and membelakangkan aku. Boringggg!!!!

and yesterday, I was so mad at my students. Lab should started at 6. At 6.10 nobody was in the lab. I think with my kindness, they began to take me so easy. I should be a little more rigid. Maybe, I dont to be nice all the time..