The day when the food goes wrong

That is my ultimate problemo. Not that I take a wrong food, but it is juz my stomach, myself. Even the most delicious food can give me a nauseated feeling. Uweek, I want to throw up. If possible, I want only to eat fruits and fruits and juice and that is it. I don't want to eat rice, noodle, soup not even KFC (which used to turn me on without fail) can bring up my appetite now.

See, that is why I always take my brother's (elder brother - Aney, as they call him bro in Tamil) word, "Makan jekla masa ada selera, sbb kalau dah takde selera, satu apa pun takleh telan". Luckily I am an eater when I am not pregnant. Hopefully, this nauseated feeling will only lasts for the first trimester. I can't only eat, but can't cook as well. I can't stand the cooking oil, any types of onion, tumis, all chili's product ie: sambal belacan, cili boh, I can't stand chicken yuck, fried fish, soup, spice and the no 1 list is I can't get near to warm rice, I will only eat cold rice... Arghhh.. H will be lot slimmer and will have flatter abs if I am staying like throughout the pregnancy.

Not only on food department, my life is totally changed now. Feeling tired, feeling headache all the time, butterfly in the stomach, feeling helpless, feeling unmotivate to go to work, feeling lazy esp at work, all sort of negative feelings. I hate to go back to my SD apartment coz it has this weird smell, one of my neighbour is doing nasi lemak business and the smells is glued (melekat - ahh maybe thats exlain why I cannot eat nasi lemak at all). U know, what I imagine to do that can make me happy is : to be at my mother's house in kampung, lepak at the sofa infront tv or sleep in my cozy bedroom.

I am not complaining, I juz need to express myself. I am lucky though, H is supportive and understanding (he only buys burger for dinner times that I can't get myself to cook).

Ya Allah, this is the test for mother. Ya Allah, give me strength & easy way to go through this.